~Renee85

Life's funny... one minute you're walking along unsuspectingly and the next you find yourself stuck to someone's face. :-*

I've got so much to do I'm stuck in overdrive. I feel like I have a sudden case of adult onset ADD - but I know it's just the nature of my life at the moment. I'm addicted to texting in the worst way... it's a real hinder to living in the present but I supposed there are worst vices to pick up when life is coming at you fast.

*Insert nationwide commercial*

I leave for Germany in 4 days and the apartment search is narrowing down! A beautiful place in the city awaits if we can talk the landlord down to about $200 less. We shall see!

I met someone who makes me feel like a little girl but that's all I want to say about that. I'd love to keep hanging out with this kid even if it's only as friends. Gotta love free spirits.

I've been generally happy for about 4 months now! This is good news, I haven't been this consistently happy in years. Kudos to citalopram, although I'm still against prescribing meds to people as a first resort. I tried like 6 years of other things first. Acupuncture works like a charm but it's expensive and you really have to change your lifestyle for the acupuncture changes to be permanent. So I guess I kind of sold out, but I am happy and selling out for happiness is better than selling out for money haha.

Only drawback to any artists out there? I haven't been able to write really anymore. Not sure if it's some side effect or whether I just have writers block but the poems ain't flowin' like they used to!!

No worries, I've taken up guitar more seriously and have been playing around with the piano - more wordless art forms seem to suffice.

Anddd that's all I got for now.

1. Class at University of the Arts
2. Visit Germany for 2 weeks in July
3. Find an apartment in Center City
4. Go to Connecticut for a weekend
5. Paramore Concert
6. O.A.R. Concert
7. Aimee Mann Concert
8. Would love to go to radiohead concert ... sold out.
9. Publish Poetry book
10. Find new guitar teacher or get my old one to come to my house... lessons on weekends don't work anymore.
11. Research ways to free creativity.
12. Find some good beach time or pool time.
13. Go hiking more.
14. Read the Tipping Point and other books that encourage revolutions.

Summer Agenda, finding an apartment is prob the most important. Can't wait to live in the city amongst the art and music!!

Finally I understand what the voice inside of me has been screaming all along...

Change the world! Oh is that it? I thought maybe it wanted me to pursue more creative endeavors or make music.

But no, all it asks of me is to change the world - for the better.

And so I ask the most important question...

How do you start a revolution?

Ah life has been interesting these days. Sometimes I really feel like change can blow you away in an instant and you suddenly find yourself not quite feeling like yourself (but in a good way!)

I write a blog for work approximately 3-4 times a week about learning and technology which I'm actually passionate about - anything that makes learning fun for people is OKAY in my book! Unfortunately, all of this blogging really sucks away any energy I have to write poems - but I'm sure Ill be writing again whenever the mood strikes.

I feel like my weekends are pretty much planned for me until July. I will be taking classes at UArts, keeping up with guitar, hopefully teaching a friend piano, going to parties, hiking, working on publishing my poems in a book, and going to Germany in the beginning of July yay!! How I love Europe...

But there's also a lot in America that I want to DO! That's what I want my new motto to be... not to bite off of Nike or anything but JUST DO IT can work pretty well sometimes. Less thinking, MORE DOING!! I felt like my a lot of my teenage years were dedicated to thinking, and I mean it's cool sometimes - as human beings thinking about life and our existence is one of our privileges that sets us apart from the other animal kingdom.

But this thinking business can be quite messy sometimes and a hindrance to actually living. I feel like if I tried to write a poem these days the only words that would come would be "BE, DO!! LIVE!!! LOVE!!!" Wahhh I sound like a cheesy motivational hallmark card.

I hope to get further into music this summer too and my new musical acquaintances will certainly help with that. And thennnnnnnn at the end of the summer I move into my new residence - yet to be announced. Somewhere in downtown Philly. I can't wait to be in a different environment with easy access to a lot more artistic places, coffee shops, museums, etc.

I've been having a lot of fun in my little area of northeast philly these days, but I want to expand. In all honesty, this area is too tied to my past and I want out. I feel like a good way to really grow is to get away from where you grew up and return to it later to see how far you've come.

I probably could have let go of home a little bit more while i was in college, but I wasn't ready. I tend to do things in my own time and I feel like letting go of things happens at a slower pace for me but it is what it is.

I've got my head up, my eyes wide open and I like what I see and I don't wanna look back or look too far ahead.