I'd like to think of myself as drama free... but maybe I can just feel in myself the possibility to have a drama free life. It's there, waiting for me to ground and balance myself.

If I were truly a drama free girl, I'd gladly accept love when it knocks on my door instead of chasing after difficult situations. That's drama.

I'm so scared of the stillness of balanced love... maybe I'm even uncomfortable with the stillness of my own life sometimes. Yet I can feel something in me desiring the stillness.

I'm at a tipping point again... moving away from who I was into something different, something hopefully even more enjoyable - although I have to admit I've been enjoying the journey lately more so than I ever have. I'm terrified of a solid reliable love - a love that doesn't necessarily revolve around intense physical desire but instead revolves around mutual respect and growth. But I feel myself wanting it more and more.

I've always wanted to fall in love with someone who is also my best friend ... but I've been working through a lot of issues to gain comfort with that which I seek.

So in short... save the drama for ya mama. I can be a balanced and grounded person - maybe even more so if I stop trying to be one. I need to trust that which is naturally within me these days. I swear I'm so afraid to let myself off of my leash... but I really think I'll be a good girl.